my best friend...

God is my best friend. He's always there for me, even in the middle of the night, when everyone else is sleeping and I just want to talk. Even when He has been asking me to come hang out with Him for weeks & I keep putting Him off. He just keeps asking.

breaking up...

Having caffeine makes me feel like I'm in love~ in love with life, in love with the world. But then, it's never long before we have a horrible break up.

head of a woman...

I love to wake up & blog to start my day. I wish I could sit here with a cup of coffee. I did have a coffee at Angelo's yesterday, because it was Mother's Day. It was so good. I'll be craving coffee for weeks now. Anyway, it's nice to sit down to something in the morning, otherwise I feel like I'm walking in circles. Right now my brain is in random fire mode, which is perfect for blogging. It's great fun, because nothing comprehensible comes out at this point, and I have to try to piece everything together so that my writing comes out looking something like a Picasso. The problem is that I'm too much of a perfectionist to appreciate the beauty of that very large nose, or to be able to accept that one eye is much bigger than the other, or to leave the hands, even though they are way too big for the boy I just painted. So, I work work work 'til everything looks normal and you miss the beauty of what could have been, if I only knew how to savor the imperfection. Well, I'm awake now, so I better get busy with my day. Love to all my readers, I know who you are-even if you never comment. =) Have a lovely day.

*See- even when I choose a Picasso, I have to choose a normal looking one. He was probably just waking up when he sketched this, and never got around to moving everything around the way he wanted. Anyway, I like the title of this one.

wetness...

I love rain. I was going to put this as a p.s. to my last post, but decided that it needed it's own place. I know I've probably blogged quite a bit about both food/dieting and rain, but that's o.k. *smile* I love the sound of the rain, the way it washes everything, the way it keeps me tucked inside my house, the way it falls from the sky. I love watching it. I love the wetness of it. Even if I'm not getting wet, just being surrounded by rain makes me feel like I'm in the shower or swimming or swimming in a shower. It's comforting. What is it, that feeling that something is washing over you? I can't describe it. I wonder if anyone has ever captured it in words. I love big thunder storms too and I miss those. A dump truck in the alley behind my house just set down a big dumpster with a rumbling bang & for a moment I thought it was thunder. *smile* Well, that's o.k. gentle rains are lovely in their own way. I love how the birds come out of their hiding places when the rain slows to a drizzle, and they start chirping and shake the water off their feathers. I think it's beautiful to them too.

taking control...

First of all... forgive me if my next several blogs have to do with food or complaints about the lack of food. I'm starting a diet today & I'm blogging about it, so that I will be inclined to stay on the diet. At first I planned to eat nothing but cereal for three weeks so that I could have a small taste of what it must be like for people who really have no food, but then I chickened out, literally, and decided that, in order to keep up with the high demands of my day to day activities, I better have some protein. So, the plan is to have 1 bowl of cereal, 1 yogurt smoothie, & 1 salad with chicken on it each day. I won't be eating any snakes, in case you were wondering. In fact, looking at this picture every day may help me stay on the diet (as I think about all the people in the world who are so hungry that they have to eat snakes). I know it's very exciting for you to hear the details of my diet. I figured I better spell it out, though.

"It's all right letting yourself go, as long as you can get yourself back." ~Mick Jagger

I always take advice from Mick Jagger. =)

fighting apathy...

Where have I lost all of my willpower? Must be on the loose, running & running-unstoppable no doubt. Whatever fear of being a quitter, whatever pride, determination, stick-to-it-iveness, or whatever I had-it's gone now. Life does seem easier, but I think I'd rather be proud & fearful.

"People do not lack strength, they lack will." ~Victor Hugo

la la laaa linoleummm...

"L" is such a lovely letter; for words like lollipop & lace; the letter "L" lights up your face; so why not la-la-la-la-laaaaaaa... with meeeee.....